Especially mine.
My ex-one.
Here I am crying, sad, hurt, and what does he do?
"Deal with it."
"Okay"
"kk"
Of course I have to deal with it, but really. You say that THAT bluntly to someone?
It seems so mean..
He called me a loser, or he assumed I was one, because I hung out with him a lot more.
Well duh, I was happy because of him, and I loved to spend time with him, since I barely got any with him..
I know he's got college, and that he wasn't feeling anything coming out, and yes, he DID want me back..for a day. Then he said he couldn't be a jerk and fake it. I was sad, and he came over, we are friends..but just, whenever I think about it, I'm really, really sad.
I don't want to be mean, and call him out, but just..he was perfect for me. We were the same basically, just the gender, and some life experiences.
I just don't understand.
If he started accusing me of stuff about our relationship and how it was my fault, I could take all my friends and put them on a jury and when they are asked who ended it, they'd point to him. If they were asked who was sad, who cried, who tried to make the best of time that was left, they'd all point to me.
I know he won't find someone ASAP, but I'd be really really upset if he did I know that won't happen so soon, he said there could be another chance, but I just don't know if I'd like to be there again. Would he just do the same thing, break up with me, then take me back, and do it again?
I love him dearly, and I'm so happy we are friends, and that we don't hate each other. I just..I don't know how far my love will go anyway.
No offense, but everyone in my school..kinda unattractive to me, and I'm not being picky. I've always had a problem where I can't find anyone at all, and I was teased, and called gay, and lesbian, or bi.
I think everyone is beautiful in their own way, and no one should be put down. I feel like a hypocrite saying that, but I guess I need a little flick on the shoulder to get my attention. A real hard flick, so I go like "LSADFWTF" and then notice that person.
I feel really, really lonely. It hurts a lot inside, and I know my friends are helping me with advice and love, but just..I don't want to be the only one sad. I thought I was over it, but then I was crying again.
How do I get over this?
One thing that will always stick with me, and please don't think I'm a super bad person, but we did a lot of sexual things together. No, not sex. I think if we did, it'd be a lot worse, awkward, name calling, etc. No, but just..how can you stop that?
Maybe I should have told him day 1, I don't know what your doing. But I just went along with it, I was curious to, I guess you could say. Yeah, not religious, but experiencing, in a good way..
I just will really miss all the love I got from him..feeling happy..
I feel so dillusional, we were talking about marriage, kids..maybe that was a distractor to get away from the real problem that would happen.
Sigh. Boys are really, really, really dumb.
I want huggles. ;-;
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